Let It Be Glory: A Year Ago I Didn't Know

Sunday, March 29, 2015

A Year Ago I Didn't Know

A year ago today, March 29, 2014, was a special day. It was my due date for Olive. Except it really wasn't that special of a day because nothing happened that day. Or the next. Or the next. Or the next.

But March 29, 2015 is a special day. It's a special day because now I know what I didn't know then.

On March 29, 2014 I didn't know if I was having a boy or a girl. I didn't know if we'd be able to use the name Olive - the name the Lord had put on my heart months before as He constantly reminded me of His {peace}- for which the olive branch is a symbol of in the Bible. I didn't know if I would be returning the baby boy clothes or the baby girl clothes I had bought for the new baby. I didn't know what day my baby would be born. I didn't know how long my labor would be or how traumatic the birth would be. I didn't know how much my baby would weigh or if he/she would be healthy or not. I didn't know what job Drew was going to get or where we were going to be living the next month. I didn't know how Isaiah and Eloise would react to the new baby. I didn't know how the baby would fit into our family or what personality they would bring with them. There were so many uncertainties.

But on March 29, 2015 now I know. Now I know that my baby was a girl. Now I know that we could use the name so dear to my heart - Olive. Now I know that she would be born almost a week late on April 2nd. Now I know that I would have to schedule an induction because Drew was leaving for a week of training for his work and we didn't want him to miss the birth. Now I know that God answered with a resounding YES my prayer that I would not need any pitocin or any other drugs to speed up my induction. Now I know that all my doctor had to do was break my water at 8:30 a.m. and my baby would be born a little before noon - just 3 1/2 hours of labor! Now I know that she would weigh in at 8 pounds 11 ounces, exactly 2 pounds heavier than her big brother (and would stay in my belly 4 weeks longer than he did).

Now I know that, as impossible as it seems, my heart can get as big as it needs to in order to be filled to the brim with love for each and every new child that enters our family. Now I know that Olive would be like the missing puzzle piece to our family - the child we didn't even realize we were missing. Now I know that her brother and sister would be over the moon in love with her and would shower her with kisses every day. Now I know that her little mouth would open to give her own kisses on her own initiative multiple times a day. Now I know that she would be a content and calm baby, easy going and relaxed. Now I know that she would be a snuggle bug, a busy body, a smarty-pants, and a sweetheart. Now I know how God has constantly reminded us of His faithfulness this past year as He provided Drew with a job and the opportunity for us to move to Florida.